Do you know what I’d be thankful for this year?
Some consistency in maintaining perspective.
Because then I’d maybe really be able to write a ”What I’m Thankful For” post like I have the last couple of years and feel it was actually truthful.
As it stands now, I haven’t been very thankful in 2012. Probably because I have too much time on my hands to think about the things I wish I could be doing or the people I wish I could be helping but not quite enought time/energy/gumption to DO anything. Or because I like to blame people/things for that lack of time/energy/gumption. Things like cultures and inconsistent hours of daylight. People like those who make up said cultures, and occasionally my innocent husband. (I really do try to steer away from that one, albeit with varying degrees of success.)
But let’s give it a go anyway.
1) I am thankful for my (usually innocent) husband. I just composed a paragraph in my head as follow-up to that statement, but for the sake of maintaining some sense privacy on the world wide web, just trust me when I say I’m right to be thankful for this.
2) I am thankful for my children, who can make me laugh and cry, turn me into my best possible self and my worst possible self, all within the span of a day…or a few minutes. I am thankful for the ages they are at — that Emilian is in that early 2-year stage where he takes pride in putting things in their place and following instructions, and that Karel is in that 4-year stage that makes me close my eyes and pray for patience more than ever.
3) I am thankful for books on parenting/kids, such as the American Academy of Pediatrics ”The Complete and Authoritative Guide: Caring for Your Baby and Young Child.” One day not long ago I was so thankful for this passage: ”Before you know it, the somewhat clam child of three becomes a dynamo of energy, drive, bossiness, belligerence, and generally out-of-bounds behavior. ….chasing off in all directions…difficult age to handle…emotional highs and lows,” (pp. 356-57) that I wanted to find someone from the American Academy of Pediatrics and knock him/her over with a gigantic bear hug, just for letting me know that if I were to be experiencing any of those behaviors with my 4 year old, it would be normal and would not (necessarily) mean I failed in some crucial step of parenting somewhere along the line.
4) I am thankful for my small kitchen. This is only because I did a thorough cleaning of it the other day.
5) I am thankful the kids eat carrots.
6) I am thankful that we see family/friends from the U.S. at least once a year. A couple of my friends here will be seeing their families in or near their home countries for the first time in three years. Doesn’t make being far any easier for me, but at least keeps some perspective.
I am thankful we see family here in Norway frequently, and that we LIKE to see them. Believe me, this is not something I take for granted. God be praised for the blessing of a loving family, both near and far.
7) I will be thankful when this year is over. Because it’s been another one of those skin-shifting, expectation-wrangling, comfort-zone-stretching, growing-while-feeling-like-failing years. But the end is in sight, and I’m hoping to enter the next year standing a little taller and looking a little less confused.
8) I am thankful for the kindness of people. I am thankful that in appreciating their non-judgementalness I am reminded to not be judgemental. I am thankful to be reminded by an act of kindness shown to me, the importance of showing acts of kindness to others.
9) Don’t feel neglected, little growing one ”in mama’s tummy.” I’m very thankful for you. You’re the one I know how to take care of. Those pictures of you last week have kept us on a high ever since. As long as you come out knowing how to hold on, we’ll be just fine.
Okay. That wasn’t so bad. It’s just one of those falls where instead of gushing we give high-fives and keep on keeping on.
A blessed Thanksgiving to you all, as you sit together in the peace that passes all understanding, hearts and minds kept in our Lord Christ Jesus.
Now go eat some pie!
*** Oh, for pete’s sake. That was kind of a depressing Thanksgiving post, wasn’t it?? Those holiday twinges of homesickness must have made it to the overflow point yesterday. Please forgive the lack of holiday cheer at that particular moment in time, and thank you for being vent-ees. 🙂 The midwife today mentioned the emotional ups-and-downs that occur in pregnancy…and I just laughed. ***